I held on every time my heart tore
I told myself there had to be more, and I would make war
Make war and hope you would return to who you were before
And maybe you wouldn't hurt me anymore
But my efforts were defeated, old habits were repeated
I would come when you pleaded, it made me feel needed
You had your way, everyday, when you wanted to play and then throw me away
I would come because I told my self that anything was
Better than nothing at all, even when you didn't answer my call
I felt like I meant nothing at all, I knew you no longer would catch my fall
My eyes felt like targets, you eyes would turn black
Your mind would go invisible with your body still intact
I never knew how you did that
I would wake up next to you, and you would look in my eyes
I would hold onto your body, wishing there were no goodbyes
But I was never enough; I never caught your bluff
When you said I miss you, I believed your every word
When you said I need you, I listened to what I heard
And I would come wherever you asked me to go
The fear and the pain I never let show
Weeks, months, years of the same repeat
Acting discrete, meeting on the street, I felt defeat
Too quick to recount, in my head I argued loud
But you would lift me up, and take me down