lying in your bed as we grew closer to eachother
i believed every movement and that we could never need another
heart to tear, mind to bore,
one to kiss or face to adore
you made me feel perfect and that you were so proud to be mine
if only i had known that every word was just a line.
that you would break your promise and follow all the rest
even when you used to say they were horrible and obsessed
she lost everyone she ever had and for the first time felt incredible pain
you were everything she could have asked for and never asked her to explain
you constantly sent her happy faces and hearts on your phone
in barley ever crossed her mind you would leave her so alone
when you knew she hit the bottom you went running for the door
that minute she fell further and her heart complealty tore
she was the center of attention always in a horrible way
you helped her ignore and move on from everything they'd say
until the time came, where you fell in their awful view
she found out that to him you were just some girl he screwed
she didnt believe it at first becasue it really doenst fit
she'll never hear it from you even if youd ever admit
that the faith that made her happy was all from you
but now she feels like your just another person she never knew
she misses you like crazy fuck she misses her old life
she goes thorugh every day jsut knowing this isnt right
that she is that same girl taht she always was before
but now when anybody sees her they whisper shes a whore
and the worst part is they mean it to be true
they tried so hard and you let them get you too
crying everyday she lost one after the otehr
she hates it that she thought you werent just another
all those words you said and promises you made
you let her go in such a manner because you were afriad
you should know that you crushed her, and you have never looked so low
and that she was still that girl you thought to be amazing the one youd always know
she put away your stuff today in a box as bright as old,
she stored your memory away with every smile they each hold
her heart literaly breaks every time she even thinks of you
because despite what she wants to do her feelings for you remain true
she hates you for everything youve done and every lie you told
for every kiss she wasted on you and every tear she'll withhold
for all the late night sleepoevers and all the loss she felt
you were the one always ther for her with who she never had a doubt
i miss you so much i cant hold in the tears
i hate you so much for proving all my fears
i miss you so much it hurts me to breathe
i hate you so much for making me believe
you were just like all the others
though i will never forget you
because though i know you are no different
your still the boy i once knew.
the one i held and kissed and touched
the one who had had me for their crush
the one i felt safe with like i never had before
the one i felt forever with and that there would be more
the one who once talked of what ifs
an how he'd be there through smiles and through crisis
hung my picture in his car,
talked of going far
loved to dream and without question include me
i wish you would wake up and see what you lost under this debris
it is you who i will always cry, though every day i try
to remember you said goodbye, the faith you taught me i will live by.

<3ihateyouforprovingtobenothing that you said youd be