i give up. compleatly. this is when i cant go on without you. this is when i admit, i need you. this is the time where i cant deny i cant hide and i cant wish any longer. i told myself that i could get on without you and i would, at least, have to try, have to not get over you but get on with my life without you. you were amazing and every time i do almost anything i think of you. you are always on my mind and i cnat lie anymore. you are all i need. you were what made me feel infamous. you, even though you confused me, made me feel like i was the best. im not saying you solved all my problems or that if you came back that all my problems would go away, all im saying is you made me feel like i could deal with all of them and that you would help me and always be there for me. i dont know what im planning on doing from now on, or what this has an impact on but all i know is that i really cant do this anymore. im sitting here in my room listening to the rain and trying to forget you but i will never forget you. its weird how youve been so close my whole life and i never even knew it. you grew up in the neighborhood across from mine even though we didnt knwo each other. you, sadly, came to my middle school and trashed my locker haha even though i didnt knwo you it was some wierd joke you and your friends palyed on us private school kids. you came to my school for a day to try it out and almost enrolled. you met me through fate and went through extreme effort to knwo my name and my story. you, were the best. i know i have to let go but...your so hard to let go of. i remember sitting in my room and smiling becuse i thought i was the luckiest girl ever. it felt like all my dreams had come true. you. were my smile. you. forgot me. you. thank you.
please, come back.
forever.