I wanted it to start now. As though my life without you was not a life.
As you know, all too well, it has been hard to adjust to a life without you.
having you in my life is all i have known since i was fifteen. So i wanted all these answers and to know you'd love me like i love you and that all of these huge life changes wouldn't change us. But that's totally wrong and its not real to ask that from you. I was trying to hold on and stop everything from changing i couldn't even see that it already had. i guess that's what love, desperation and fear does to a person sometimes. We were always just a little bit too far away, feeling so much but never allowing ourselves to get too close where we could hurt other people. so we hurt ourselves instead. im sorry ive been so confused and scared and heartbroken. Somehow i never realized that moving 3,000 miles meant i would be so far. Now that a little bit of the fog has cleared I know that i cant control the future or the past. So maybe our lives will cross again and maybe they wont, but either way youll always be in my heart.