I wish I didn’t miss you, as much as I do
I wish I really meant that, and that I wanted to
I wish that you were a part of my life I could just leave
Your always on my mind, but so is he
I don’t know who I love more or what to believe
One has been years one has been months
Both I have found myself in love and in lust
maybe one day ill know which feeling to trust
for now I sit and wonder, why I cant decide
for who I loved then I could not ever rely
you can say you have changed but are you worth the risk
you have always been a severe hit or miss
I loved you for years, every single day
But so many days, you didn’t want to play
And when you did, you would and hten disappear
Because the fun was all you wanted and that you made clear
You said you loved me and I believed that to be true
All I wanted was you, yeah all I wanted was you
So what happened to that love, the love I held for you
It faded when you pushed me away
And I was too torn up to want to play or stay another day
So I met someone new and they showed me how to see
How to feel loved and welcome and be able to believe
Without doubt or reason but because I knew it to be true
I always knew I loved you, he said I should love him too
So that I did, I fell into love
But somehow in my heart
You have always stayed above
Above all the rest who wanted my heart
I hate that you captured me right from the start
Years ago I gave you my heart
It was then you didn’t know
That all this time later you would finally know how to let it show
I cant decided if its to late or if your in perfect time
As the new whispers in my ear “I am yours and you are mine”
It makes me happy when he speaks those words
But when he does I think of you
And your touch your face your hug your love
I think of you and get confused
Are you the lover I dream of?
Is it you or you or someone new
When will I know if all I really want is you?