sometimes i just find myself thinking that if i don't ever get to be with you or see you again how can i go on living.
its just that, i never thought too far ahead without you in the picture. 
i put a lot of my faith in destiny
thinking that it would all work out because it was meant to be
i didn't bother saying "if it was" because i could feel it in my heart that it is
I drown in you every night
and what if you what if you never think of me

i start to breathe hard and my eyes flood with fear
i can't breathe or stand the thought  of life without you
and I've been without you for 18 months. i guess I've just blamed it on myself for moving across the country so i kept feeling you with me as if someday you just would be. i keep this hope wrapped around my ring finger because if i let go of it i will surely collapse. 
i can't face the idea of my life without you in it. 
i hate this so much. i wish you were with me right now and forever.