Freedom is terrifying as i continue to feel trapped in a life that is comfortable. dammit how the comfort makes me cringe. but without it i yearn for the closeness, the love, the loyalty. i crave the constant. i need and beg for it. without it i am nothing. i am an empty shell of myself. a few whiskeys in, all ready and alone, these are my pivotal moments of awareness. and in these times i come a few steps closer to breaking free.