i have come to realize alot, beaacsue in the past two months i have been forced to face myself. i wish that when people were presented with problems they had this chemical in them taht triggered and knew exac tly what to do and how to handle the situtaion.

She’s going back to how she used to be, when she was so horrified of getting close to someone that all she wanted to do was be constantly side by side with them. She’s contradicting and she knows it. Left behind by so many who claimed to want her to be their best forever. She cried and screamed thinking that they were better. before she knew what was going on, she was scraping away and screaming the same song, of how lovers can love and lovers can lie and others can hate; without really knowing why. And people are born with two faces instead of one, and they turn around and hate while their victims hold their tongue. For the one who is the victim becomes the one who rises above to be able to beat all the challenges with the trick that their enemies can’t even dream of . they become strong because they have known it all along, that if you claim strength you better expect to prove that you belong, so she claimed her weakness that she could never let go, because when she said forever she did more than just let it show, that she cared for you and loved you with every once she had, because when she said forever she made a silent promise to never make you sad
she doesn’t want to lose you, and she cant deny that she’s afraid
because she has suffered so much loss through broken promises so many had made
and she wants you to be an exception to that stupid simple rule
that when you say forever, you will never get too cool
you will never make her feel like she is any less than she deserves
and you will live up to that heart you drew and remain along every curve
because life will take its turns and leaps
but it is up to you the happiness you keep
and if you ever find yourself ever wanting more
your search will quickly find that exactly what you adore
is standing right in front of you with her hands on the open door
waiting to never let go of you or let you suffer anymore
though when she finds you feeling less, I can promise you she will make war
she will make war, old war , on who you were before.